The kids want to see there dad.

Since we have left the boys have both been wanting to see there dad. I want them to have a relationship with him more than anything. My parents were divorced and I got to see my dad when ever I wanted, and some times I didn't. I have a great dad! So why can't the boy's dad be the same way. I have called 2 times each day for the past 2 days, each time saying that the kids would like to see you. But he hasn't responded. I am tempted to call him at work so I can at least get him on the phone. But I'm not sure if I should do that.

So today I'm feeling quite sad for my boys. They deserve to see there dad and I wish he would just man up and be a good dad!

Money

I have been told to go and get some money from the bank. And today I think I'm going to finally do it. I have reservations though. I have been told so often to not touch the money unless I really need to. I now have $9.00 to my name. I think it's time to go and bite the bullet. So here I go, when Landon wakes up from his nap I will put the kids in the car and go to the bank. Wish me luck that there is money in the bank still.

In the Begening

I decided to start this blog to help me through the process of Divorce with 2 small children. I was married for 7 years. My children are young 2 and 4 and a half. It has been a really difficult situation for us. We had to leave the only home my children knew and the home that I have lived in since I was 4. We have moved in with my mom and her husband. The boys love it here, but I feel like I have left my intire life behind.

I will not go into the details of why we split up at this time. But throughout this process I'm sure I will fill in the blanks.

We have been gone for 4 days now. The one thing that surprises me the most is that I'm not as sad as I thought I would be. I guess that means I was expecting this to come for some time. I do cry when one of my boys asks me about dad or going home. I have not heard from their dad since Monday. I am trying not to be surprised. I would like to hear from him to make sure he's OK, but I know that may not be possible. So I sit here wondering what is going on with him.

I am also creating this blog for my friends and family to keep track of what is happening in this very difficult process. So if you have been invited to view this you are important to me and I want to keep you updated on what is happening. I will up date in the morning and the evening or when ever I feel I have something to add. If you would like to respond that would be great. I am very new to this and it will take me a little while to figure out how this whole thing works. But I know it will help me, so thank you for reading.